Vernon has seemed pretty out of it the past few days (apparently since Saturday, according to Joe.) In the mornings I’ve been at Dialysis with him, I noticed that he hasn’t been acting as sharp. He’s been very uncomfortable on the chair, though he hasn’t mentioned wanting to die again, thank God. He hadn’t had a PEMF mat treatment for for almost two weeks, which may have been a good thing in that I can tell how much it actually works. I called Mike and he drove up with Justine and I after school this afternoon. Almost immediately when he was on the mat, Vernon perked up. It was quite incredible. I knew that it was working before, and I knew he enjoyed the experience, but I was surprised that within seconds, he seemed to be more comfortable and lucid. It will be interesting to visit him tomorrow and see how he is acting.
Joe has been very concerned about him. He says he hasn’t talked to him since Saturday, that Vernon has been sleeping longer hours again. We thought someone might have slipped him some Ativan in the night. I went to the head nurse and made sure she wrote a note to have the nurses call me EVERY time they are tempted to give it to him. Personally, I’d prefer them not to give it to him ever, as if he has an allergic reaction to the stuff. But they seem to be more comfortable thinking that if he gets aggressive, they have a solution. I’m hoping it doesn’t come to that at all.
Dr. Dan was there and was able to see the PEMF mat working so we will have an order for it when ours arrives. Perhaps if he continues to see good results, he will be able to suggest it as a therapy options for other patients in the future. Dr. Dan also validated Joe as Vernon’s advocate, saying that if he starts acting strange again for a period of time or acts like he is in more pain than usual, he should give him a call immediately. He also talked to the nurses about giving Joe a little more freedom as his friend, allowing him to take him to the group events (like movies in the multipurpose room) which should lift Vernon’s spirits as well as giving Joe the respect he deserves.
The nicest thing was seeing how the longer Vernon was on the mat, Vernon was able to respond emotionally to Justine (and to me.) It was as if I could see his heart being warmed up right in front of us. The love is there…its just gets stuck behind his confusion and discomfort.
It goes both ways…we hope he feels our love. But when we feel his love, we feel better too! It fills us with more than what I’d call hope. In those moments, all the other issues fade away.
“These three remain: faith, hope, and love. The greatest of these is love.”
I know this to be true.