Midnight tonight will mark NIGHT 3 of our hospital stay. Will our medical pumpkin turn into a stagecoach? So strange to get exactly what you wish for. Someone said earlier to me today at the hospital: “With God, nothing is wasted.” Take that how you understand it, as I know not everyone reading this has a concrete faith. But I let those words sink under my skin because honestly, the past couple of days have been very complex emotionally to me. Hospitals are intense places. On the one hand, we are in the most beautiful facility I’ve been in. I am overwhelmed by the caring nature of the staff, getting exact information on Vernon’s condition as it changes, calls at home from the Doctor, and above-and-beyond social care, with guidance to Vernon’s future, even months down the line.
But these last few days have been emotionally challenging in unexpected ways. I suppose our body stores up the stresses of the past until we are able to release them. And being in a hospital with Vernon unresponsive (yes, he is getting better, but he is still very quiet and detached in his recovery) brings me right back to those three months last summer. Without discrediting those who have gone through worse, I can relate to small symptoms of PTSD emerging in this place. It has been easy to let my mind go to very negative places if I give an inch. But if I stay there too long, I start to drown a bit…or at least, I fear drowning in thoughts that might never end. I can only allow these moments of fear and grief to take over for moments because I still have a family to take care of…these kids are my lifeline in the end, you see?
I know Vernon will be better very soon. He will be back to the nursing home in no time. And we will have our insurance plan A. But wow, nothing is wasted.
That said, let us return to goodness in the land of the living, I love finding the bright things that keep us anchored. And truly, they keep coming. Yesterday, a birthday package came for Vernon’s birthday from Google headquarters. To all you font guys who had a hand in this, thanks for the tee shirt.
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2o Billion Views? If I had a dollar, right? Well done, guys. And well done, Vernon for Oswald.
His friend and colleague Dave was here earlier in the week, but he’s not the only one of his type designer circle that has been showing support. Ebon Sorkin, who has been helping with Vernon’s unfinished work behind the scenes (as well as his own work) sent a series of posters to print for Vernon’s wall. You don’t have to have a degree in Typography to appreciate their loveliness.