On This Day in History: The kids started school last year and I went up to Costa Mesa with my packed bags, planning to stay near Vernon as long as I needed to (which turned out to be eight days.) No matter what, I was NOT going to miss his death…at least, I hoped I wouldn’t, and I wanted to make myself as available as possible.
This year, we have another week till the kids go back to school. They aren’t thrilled about it (though Maki has a better attitude than his sister this round—he wants to see his friends) and so far, I haven’t been thrilled about it either. It’s been a really great summer. I do love that late wake up time time without the morning rush. It’s been great having so much down time to ourselves …and with each other. This was the first summer in three years that we could be mostly home and relaxed in it. Granted, Maki and I went to Norway, and he stayed a few extra weeks. But even that gave me extra time with Justine to just cuddle and arrange play dates. I feel like we got some some equilibrium back between us. We aren’t so stressed. She’s not so nervous that I’m going to leave each day and not come back. Yes, I still work from home and she still wants my attention at the most inopportune times, but I feel like we’ve relaxed into it. I hope we can take this into the year. Whatever happens, I know we got through the last one..and the three before that. It can’t be any worse, can it?
I’m not sure if I have introduced out latest member of the family on this blog. Introducing Benson, the Hamster. Justine finally got him on her birthday in June after six months of plans and promises. He’s the smallest sort of starter-pet but now we can’t imagine life without him. He’s a total mental health pet for her…and if I’m honest, for me too. 🙂
So here we are…at almost a year, perhaps a little fragile, but also kind of empowered in the fact that we’ve almost made it a year. That has got be worth a piece of cake at least, right?
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happy to make that cake! love, aunt sue
I can feel myself relaxing just watching the video of Justine petting Benson. Never thought of a hamster as a Therapy pet, but I get it now.
Yes. Cake and every form of congratulations and high-fives for the kind of showing up and sticking together you all have done. I draw such strength and inspiration from exactly that. It doesn’t have to be pretty or fit into any particular pattern for life-after-tragedy but dang, girlfriend, it’s beautiful beyond what I have words for, what you are allowing to grow from this soil of suffering.
Though it’s from a distance, I stand amazed. You are mentoring me.
My heart is with you as your body is well aware of these big anniversaries. And so from this distance, I am holding you.
Much, much love dear sister.
Such a beautiful post. I pray for you and Justine and Maki with love.
Benson and Justine, just too adorable1 Eating the cracker laying on his back, OMG, he is so comfortable, just chillin’. Makes me want to rush out and get a hamster to cuddle with. I’m not home enough to have a dog but I think I could handle a hamster. LOL
what wonderful videos and pictures of adorable Justine and such cuddly Benson.thank you for sharing, wonderful to see what is going on in California !!