We managed to get through last night and all of today. I hear changes in his breathing, and they are ordering patches that will help with the wetness in his chest and throat. He seemed much more regulated as far as medication goes, and he hasn’t been noticeably awake since yesterday. Still, I think he hears. His toe still taps from time to time and his eyebrows raise when he hears certain names or even my voice when I enter the room. And then we medicate him again as soon as he starts to move too much. I feel much better today, even though I was tired from lack of sleep, merely because I knew he was feeling much better. It’s been a weird symbiotic relationship that got more intense over the past two years, but it’s nice that we are still seeing signs of that to the very end. It feels right, though not always comfortable.
Nap time.
My mother being wonderful, as usual.
Here’s Ramona, his beloved CNA, watching the video of Vernon giving his speech on free Type. She loves him and will miss him. She keeps saying how handsome he is now. Before she left her shift this afternoon, I heard her ask him to wait till tomorrow morning.
Justine came up for a bit in the afternoon. I missed her so much so we planned a getaway at the hotel pool. But first she had some time with her dad. I wasn’t sure how well it would go as he was much less lively than when she saw him last week. She asked why he looked so young. I told her (much like before) that he was going in and out of heaven and therefore he was becoming more beautiful.
I also suggested she think of a sign, a symbol that her father would be watching over her. It didn’t take her long to think of something. “A butterfly landing on me.”
I think he heard her. They say hearing is the last thing to go.
Tonight, I am back in a hotel. The nurse has promised to call if there are any major changes. He looks and sounds much more ready to go than he did even this morning. But this is a slow transition. I trust that I’ll be where I need to be in the morning. And that he is where he needs to be too.
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One of the one beautiful shares Allison. I love what Justine said as her sign- and you were brilliant to ask her. It will happen many times ’till you are all together again one day. I believe this from my own experiences I am often blessed with. The butterflies.
LOVE YOU. Sending you and Justine and Macki and darling Vernon peace. Bless.
love and prayers continue…
Oh Allison❤❤❤ your words are bringing me back to the recent passing of my dad , Paul and Sue, my fiancee Matt s parents.Every time I see a chubby butterfly I know its my dad. It helps and also makes me cry every time. Sending you massive hugs….I am standing with you as are many..much love and safe journey to Vernon❤❤❤❤
Your process has bean so beautiful to be a part of Allison. Thank you for being true to yourself and to Vernon, and for sharing your lives the way you have. Its an honor to have been included in your circle of friends over the last few years. I bless you, honor you and pray for the Holy Spirit and Angels to surround you with comfort, grace and love in the days ahead. And that you’ll have every assurance from heaven that God is pleased with you. Sleep well my friend, and I pray the same for Vernon.
Angels watching over. Rest a while and restore.
Allisonbyou write so beautifully and honest. You’ve permitted outsiders like myself to peer into your window and see what you see. I feel like your words are confirming me instead of the other way around. A flight of angels take off a little at a time each day.
(I meant *comforting (not confirming)).
Thinking of you and Vernon with love.
Allison,
Hearing is the last to go as far as I have heard back hear. So love him to the end and even after. Love the way that you share everything with us. God be with the whole room and all that are affected by Vernon.
Hugs,
Becky
Bless Vernon with your voice God. May he hear it clearly, as it calls to him to join your kingdom. Thank you that your love for Vernon is immeasurable and eternal. Thank you that his passing from this world to the next is marked by love. Thank you for Allison and her faithful commitment to Vernon. Thank you for Maki, and Justine, comfort all of them. The family and friends who grieve for the loss of husband, father, son, brother, friend. You have used the love story of Vernon and Allison in many lives.
Help Vernon, give him courage and strength for the journey to Heaven.
Allison, Who would ever ask for the Lord to put us in so many lives to bless and show Who He really is? I would not, of course….and neither would you, if we knew the trail ahead of us to accomplish our prayer…….but you have (and are) doing just that! Probably more lives have been touched with your journey than all the people in missions where we have lived. May the Lord just bless these hours with His presence……and I’m praying for a butterfly to land on Justine. (What a little jewel!)
Give them Your peace, Your courage, Your strength for each moment, now and the moments ahead.
Loving you all and praying for endurance to run this race.
I just love that moment with you and Justine. She is an incredible little girl, brave and compassionate. Evidence of all the good that her parents have invested into that Dingle. 😉 I’m tucked away working for the next 7 days straight <> but with you and yours in spirit. <3
precious moments!!!!
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Allison,
I thank you for sharing all your wisdom, insights, and love for your Vernon, Maki and Justine. Sending prayers and love.